Lost in France

Well this afternoon, me and the two youngest went to Tynemouth, to play crazy golf. Bloody cold wind, but still we enjoy playing.

After that we went to the little park behind the boating lake.

They were having great fun, untill when the daughter was chasing her younger brother she tripped and fell awkwardly on her arm. She cried a lot, and I could see she was genuinely hurt.

I carried her back to the car, and took her to see Mum, as requested.

I had done all the basic, wiggly your fingers checks and alike, so was reasonably sure it was not broken.

Anyway get home, still sore, so we head to the A & E department. Get seen by the nurse, reasonably quickly. She does a basic rview, comparing it with the other arm, and she is reasonably sure nothing is broken. The wait for a doctor was 2.5 hours.

We opt to go home.

However, about an hour or so later the pain is still there and it has started to swell, so back to A&E.

I drop off mum and daughter, take son back to the house where big brother has said he'll watch him.

Head back to the hospital, to get my head bitten off, and to be told I am not required there, have done enough damage already.

So back to the house, watch X factor and I am a celebrity, then get the call to pick them up,

verdict torn muscle and pulled tendons, nothing broken.

She'll score a day off school tomorrow, and I'll get a life time of reminders as to how I am unable to look after the kids.

Well this morning I got a complete lashing from the Ex. started small and worked her way uo, how irrisopnsible I am with regards to the eldest and his GF, how every one thinks i am doing  the wrong thing, and as soon as it goes wrong they will all come to blame me.

Then she had a strop about my parents, and so she said she was off to she hers, but about 15 minutes later she was back again, ranting once more.

But not long after that, just as we were settling down to do homework, in the flat, she rings, and says she is struggling with her college work, coud I come down and help her with it.

So took the kids down, needed the use of the printer anyway, and sat for a couple of hours working through her work with her. mainly formating and proof reading, just to make sure it makes sense.

well today has been a day of contrasts.


This morning, the youngest and I, went to pick up the Ex and then went to see a friend and his wife who have just had a baby. Both had a hold and the baby was very cute.

Then went to pick up the daughter from her sleep over and the four of us went to grab a coffe and a cake.

From there it was back to the house. the toungest and me took the dogs to the beach, was shall we say bracing. The dogs liked it.

back to the house, couple of jobs sorted and then me an the two youngesy head to the flat. watch a harry potter movie.

The Ex rings and asks to join us for tea. So we head out for Italian.

Drop the ex off at the house and the three of head back to the flat. we watch x factor and i am a celebrity, play some games and chill

At about 11:30 pm get a call  from the ex saying she cannot sleep, and it is because I am stressing her out.

She had invited me to stay on Christmas Eve, but that has apparently been causing her some stress. She says she has been trying so hard to keep things normal for the kids, the dinners out and things, but it is just not working. She feels her parents have an expectation that she should try to get back with me, she says it is all pressure. She says she will talk with her parents and put them straight and she can not stand the thought of me staying in the house; She will wait until I arrive for the kids to open their presents.

You know what it works for me.

She says she can not sleep in the empty house, without having the kids there.

says she is not going to stay another weekend in the house alone.

Think may be she was expecting me to say I would rush a kid down there now for her, but I did not bite.

So said our goodnights, and we watched a Simpsons episode. I tucked the kids in and am now tucked in myself.

Her main conclusion is that we have now been divorced a year, and we do not seem to have got anywhere. She still does not feel free.

To me, me livig in a flat and her in the house  seems like progress to me. Think she must have been thinking that by now she would have a steady man in her life moved in to the house and all would be rosie

Anyway what is freedom. and who is really free?

We all have ties and responsibilities?

Well here in the North East of England the weather is not too bad. the worst of the weather has been in the North west, my thoughts go out to those in Cumbria. 14.5 inches of rain in 24 hours in cockermouth.

My trip home was without problem.

Daughter was just in from school when I got there. She has strated rehersals for the school pantomine. She is looking forward to her part.

Then we had to drop her off at her friends for a sleep over, for her fiends birthday party. They are going to see the new Twilight movie.

I drove her to the house, but sat in the car, whith the youngest, while the Ex took her to the door.

One of the other mothers was just dropping of another girl. The three mothers got talking. The conversation swang round to divorce, so the Ex told them that we were divorced. None of them knew.

I told her that she should have discussed this with our daughter before launching in to telling her friends parents. The Ex did not seem to think she had done anything wrong. I disagree, so I said she will have to tell the daughter what she has said, then she asked if would tell her.

Not quite sure how daughter will react, but I seriuosly think it should have been discussed with her first.

Anyway after that the Ex and the youngest and me went out to eat. we had a nice meal. The Ex was fun and nice to be with. the youngest loved having us both to himself. the youngest sat next to his mum and they were kissing and cuddling.

Would have loved to have been getting some of the same.

got back to the car and found that I had picked up a parking ticket. Did not think the parking warden would be out at that time

After dinner we dropped the ex at the house and we headed over to the flat. And watched I'm a celebrity